Ek Mulaqaat !!

Aj main Zindagi se mili

Pareshan thi , bheed men phasi thi ..uljhi uljhi si thi
Maathe pe uske lakeeren khichi thi mano keh rahi ho ki
Thak gayi hoon waqt se ladte ladte .
Saanse kuch fasi fasi si thi uski , shayd khul ke hasna chahti thi ..
Maine rokna chaha ussey par ruki nahi who ..
jaldi mein thi thoda ..phisalti chali gayi

usko yuh dekh ke aankh bhar aayi meri ..dam ghutne sa laga
mai ek gehri saans ki talash mein nikal padi.

Aaj mai Muhabbat se mili...

Muskuranyee woh mujhe dekh kar
Par aankho mein kahi koi dard chhupa tha ..
Shayad phir raat bhar woh soyee nahi thi !!

Chahre ki raunak kai sawalon mein kho gayi thi
Waqt se shayd kahi who bhi haar chuki.thi

Baar baar mujhe dekhti thi par khamosh ho jaati thi
Ansoo tham chuke the shayad ya sailab abhi aana tha.

Bas ek muskurat thi halki si mano keh rahi ho ki ..”khush rehna “
Uski is phiki muskurat ko mai dil mein dabaye aage badh gayee
Jawaab dene ke liye mere pass bhi kuch nahi tha kahi.

Soch mein doobe kadam mere kheech le gaye kahi
Nazar utha ke dekha to bachpan ki galiyon mein khud ko kahad paya.
Waqt bahut guzar chukka magar phir bhi, kuch bhi nahi badla tha wahan

Mai wahan YAAD se mili

Bahut khush thi .. chehak rahi thi
Kuch chhote bachho ke sang nange pairon se daud rahi thi

Mujhe dekh kar khilkhila ke hasee,
Boli ..aaj phir aa gayi tum mujhe dhoondte hue
Is taraf !
uski hasee uski aankhon tak pahuch rahi thi
maine pehli baar phir us din ghehri saans liya.
Maine yaad ko gale lagaya to palke nam ho chali meri.


Meri khushi ko dekh ke woh ekpal tak pujhe dekhti rahi
‘Boli saath hoon mai tumhare hamesha ‘
Lekin yeh bol ke phir un baccho ke peeche daud gayee.
Aur un galiyon mein lukka chhupi ke khel mein kho gayee.


Shaam ko lauti kamre mein to TANHAYEE intezaar kar rahi thi mera
Bas sirf uske pass hi hai waqt mere liye shayad
Maine ussey bataya apne is mulaqat ki dastan
Aur who khamosh ho kar sunti rahi mujhe ……

Chalte jaana hai...

Its been a long time since the blog is updated. And I am kinda velli today. So here I go.

Progress of TB is kinda unstable these days. Some days there are 100 posts n at times people don't post for days :. but atleast it is active so I shouldn't crib about it. Though many random people claim that TB is active because them. Prolly its been days since they have seen a mirror :P..

TB is active only coz of bonding we all share. That reminds me of chemistry classes covalent bond, simple bond n how can I 4get James:P.

Its been a long time now since some of our founder members have gone absconding.

Himani does pop up on gmail prolly she lost her way to TB..
Avradip so immersed in love that he cant see anything else… huh :O
Kandy did post few days back and we are still trying to come out of shock.
Deepu is busy doing a deep research on blondes.

I guess we should sing “Jhalak dikhla jaa” :P
I suggest venky should be given this job. His personality goes well with Himmesh. Please someone lend him a cap.

Enough of crap for now..
Now back to work.. its been quite some time since I have worked.

P.S: i know the title has got nothing to do with d content.. but who cares =)). i cudnt think of anything else..

An Odinary Day!

I dunno what came over me ..my love for change or a general restlessness ..I got this job offer from Jaipur and I accepted it . something which few months back, before I accepted the offer, would have been totally unacceptable ..even the thought .

I am not made for small town/city ..the slow pace kills me … not that I have a fast pace . on the contrary am too slow ..somewhat a misfit .but I guess it’s the contrast which drives me .
But here I am in a city , rooted in age old customs and traditions ..modern in infrastructure yet not free from superstitions . I don’t want to sound offensive to those who belong to this place but as an outsider and that tooa single women ..this is a hostile place.!

When I started for jaipur I kept my mind blank, keeping no expectations and very deliberately not thinking about anything …trying hard for a positive approach .

My bus reached the stand and before I could get down there were number of auto walas grabbing my bag ..kahan chlana ? idhar ayiee,…. my protest went unheard . I clearly looked an outsider . my bag was taken away , I found myself in auto . “Mansarover chalo” …”kitna loge ?” “100 rupiya(for a distance of 40 max) .. madam yahan itna hi lagta hai” !!deal was done .

.it was getting cloudy .. half way I reached …it started drizzling . I smiled to myself .. March rain .. it had to be this way. Jaipur ..”amber is in ur city ..sky !.. it had to drizzle “
I looked at the city ..my hope started diminishing , good roads , clean in general but it was clearly a small city . typical small shops , 4-5 people gathered around every shop , just gossiping . Women in pallus , people staring in my auto at the signals .. my heart started sinking . I didn’t fall in love with Jaipur in first sight …sigh , all positivism fading fast . .. tmrow will be better …I secretly prayed !

Now its three months and ma here in a rented palce .I live by myself . cooking cleaning and walking to office , TVin free time , STD calls most of the time and movies on weekend . this fills my day . still I have that restlessness . haven’t adjusted .
Life for a single women that too from metro is not easy .. everybody has perception . neighbours keep an eye on you , not that its not there in my place but here u are clearly an outsider .scrutiny is more solid. Paper planes with scribbings, pebbles …loads of them, plastic balls lie on my terrace ..haven’t spotted who is behind it or how many !I come to the terrace only when the city is sleeping .

Irritated and Running late as usual , I hurriedly walk for my office today .. its too hot , so I take a rikhshaw instead . A girl in Capri jeans, more importantly in sunglasses with messy curly hair is a unique feature . I feel hundred of eyes on me as I wait to cross the road . traffic passing by me , whitles ..”aa ja baith jaa” ,(come sit!) …..I ignore . its ritual .
I finally take the rikshaw .. 5 mins ride is a long journey here . two cyclist paddle along with my rikshaw ..same pace . smiles , I ignore , comments ..i ignore ,they come too close for comfort ..finally I look at them ..hard . they slow down !!

I reach office .

Am in lift for my office ..3rd floor ..looks like 70th floor to me . the one across me is bowled out of his mind .. he just spotted a Alien in lift . his lucky starts . he stares and stares . I stare back . My hands itch to hit him right across his cheek ..slapppppppp. I control my carnal instincts :D

Finally am in my safety zone . , work is fun, Music drowns me . its a creative fields , challenge everyday , some production every day .. brainstorming I love it … light hearted fun am completely lost . In between I chat , catch up with friends across the globe, and then its time to leave .

Evening … I walk back .

Cluthing my bag tightly I walk down the main road for my home . I keep looking back to make sure nobody drives past too closely ..hitting me from back.. comments , stares , a slopppy kiss sound from the passing scooterist ..degi kya ? (translation not allowed )I hurl a string of abuses ..he speeds away .i feel good . its all OK .

Touchwood its just another Ordinary day in here . God,save me from extra ordinary . I pray in heart as I hum a tune inside my gates , unlocking my flat .
Tmrow is another day!

hey all...

Hope this new year really rockkksssss for each one of us! Have fun, stay safe!

Much love

Himz!!

I wonder

I wonder !


Will we ever sit side by side on a sea shore and see the sun go down?
I wonder ..

Running in opposite direction ..will we ever stop by ..and think of each other ..
I wonder ..

Moments today that we savour, will we ever go down this memory lane ..
I wonder ..

Running in the rain ..soaking our body n soul. . will we ever get drenched like this
I wonder ..

Smiling on the song on the radio…will it ever move me this much again
I wonder..

I wonder for the life that we have …
Strangers … ..friends ….. companions …

What name should I give you … or does it even matter ?
I wonder ..

I gather my memories …to pull me though for the rest of the journey.
To find my horizon .. to create new story ..to be a wife, a mother and to live life.

But all this while … a feeling lies ..nudging my heart time n again .
That far far away in a separate sphere.. will u pause ever to think of me again.

I wonder !

Where to Tap!

Ever heard the story of the giant ship engine that failed?

The ship's owners tried one expert after another, but none of them could figure but how to fixthe engine. Then they brought in an old man who hadbeen fixing ships since he was a youngster. He carried a large bag of tools with him, and when he arrived, he immediately went to work. He inspected the engine very carefully, top to bottom. Two of the ship's owners were there, watching this man, hoping he would know what to do. After looking things over, the old man reached into his bag and pulled out a small hammer.

He gently tapped something. Instantly, the engine lurched into life. He carefully put his hammer away. The engine was fixed!

A week later, the owners received a bill from the old man for ten thousand dollars." What!" the owners exclaimed. "He hardly did anything!" So they wrote the old man a note saying, "Please send us an itemized bill."The man sent a bill that read:
Tapping with a hammer ............................$2.00Knowing where to tap ........................ $9998.00

Effort is important, but knowing where to make an effort in our life makes all the difference.

Your part of world...

This post comes after a long time... Heard this story somewhere...

A man was walking down the beach at sunset. As, he walked along, he saw another man in the distance. He noticed this man kept leaning down, picking up something and throwing it out into the water, again and again. As, he approached even closer, he noticed that the man was picking up starfish that had been washed up on the beach. He was throwing them back into the water, one by one.

Puzzled, he approached the man and said, "Good Evening. I was wondering what you are doing."

"I'm throwing these starfish back into the ocean. You see, it's low tide and all these starfish have been washed up onto the shore. If, I don't throw them back into the ocean, they'll die up here from lack of oxygen."

"But, there must be thousands of starfish on this beach. You can't possible get to all of them. And, don't you realize this is probably happening on hundreds of beaches all up and down this coast. Can't you see that you can't possibly make a difference?"

The man bent down and picked up yet another starfish, and threw it back into the ocean. With a smile he replied, "Made a difference to that one !!!"


Just remember, no matter how small the deed
it really does makes a difference.
Make a difference today.
Do something nice for someone else.